Blue Pills.

'No matter how much we struggle, we're still like goldfishes, trapped in a bowl...'

Growing up is bitter sweet. One day you're best friends, and the next day you wake up and you realise that you've grown tired of the same routine and those same people.

We realise that in this world everything comes at a price and everyone, everything has a negative side that they don't want to show. We become sorrowful and complicated, we learn to pretend that we're alright and hide our tears. We learn how unfair this world can be and we begin to doubt each other. We keep secrets from even those who are closest to us and we take advantage of the weaker.

"Money can not buy happiness", but money are what we have worked so hard for. We cheat and hurt the ones we love because as we grow older, we realise that money is one of the most important things in life, maybe even more important than love and friendship.

Growing up comes at a price. In order to grow up and become mature, we must learn to ignore the feelings in our heart and listen to our head, we must learn to not be affceted by emotions. In order to become sucessful and earn a place in this cruel society, we must learn to look at our family and friends as enemies and competitors who we need to defeat.

Growing up... it slowly steals away all the things we want to keep.

But we all must grow up...

...so please remember the happiness we felt when we were with each other as childhood slowly slips away...

Believe in Love

holdays ^^ and for once i dont feel bored :) although ive only been outside my house once since the holidays started :L i havent even been to the garden... so now im white as a ghost.... but O WELL

i finished god of studies and its THE BESTEST DRAMA EVER... just because lee hyun woo and yoo seungho are BOTH in it and its so touching D: i cried so much... i think its the most ive cried for a drama................ and theyre both so hot UUHUM 

first two picures= lee hyunwo 

last two= yoo seungho

i cant even chose my favourite >_> theyre both really good at acting and yoo seungho is so hot and he can sing (believe in love ft iu) while lee hyunwoo is so adorable and he can dance (in god of study) :O but i tend to go for the cute one more haha... but yoo seunghois so.. OK NEVERMIND too hard 

yea i know i said the drama's the best ever earlier but the ending sucked :L they didnt mention too much about baekhyun and pulip's relationship... actually the only thing that tells us that they like each other are the awkward glanced between them and when baekhyun tried to kiss pulip but even then pulip ended up running away -.- i was lyk wth is this when she did thay D:

next kdrama is either personal preference or playful kiss hmm.. o well nites for now :D i wanna take a break from kdrama and sleep early and get rid of eyebags byebye

You're my star

omfg report cards =.= i just...just... URGG
got B for french lol wutevas and then mum got all agro just cos she thinks i never practise? sometimes i realli want a camera filming me 24/7 to show her how i have to ditch lunch and morning tea everyday just to practise that speech and how i have to stay up until 2am just to finish french and science assignments

n im actually quite glad that i didnt make it into fast track maths ;L i dont see how i'll cope... if aspire subjects means that i only get max of 6 hrs of sleep each night doesnt fast track make it 4....... o.O

pfft o well i dont see how a B is so bad although im still quite disappointed mehh

nites~~

Baby Boo~~

Why does my heart go thump thump just thinking about you? Every little thing, everyday everyday, i'm going to try it with you. I'm glad that you're here, cause everyday is enjoyable, now that we're together.                                                                                                              -If you want a lover, G.Na ft Rain

last day of school today D: awwww i wont be going to bshs for at least a year now but how cool would it be like when i return i know how to go to everywhere and all the short cuts :L o well i dont wanna think about this just cos it makes me sadsadsad

so me and vanessa went to garbo today to guy each other presents :D

this is what we got ^o^ theyre so adorableeeee mine is the one on the right... yea i wanted the one on the left but o well vanessa can have it cos im such a nice friend ^^ and also they were on special at toys r us so we got them for $15 instead of $30 thats half price/ what a cheap asian/ so anyways i named mine baby boo ^^ ikrikrikr its sho cuteeee except i think the name baby boo fits vanessa's puppy more. btw if u were wondering vanessa doesnt know what to name hers :L shes bad with names LOL

we're planning to buy steph a pink version

pahahahaha i dont think steph likes pink but o well :L pink is cute :L
i'll just spam this post with vanessa pics :L she was raping the puppies at the bus stop :L

ASIANNNNN -_-

HAPPY FACE :D CHEAP ASIAN GOT CHEAP PUPPIES ^^

lalalalla IM DONE WITH SCHOOL DONE WITH YEAR 8 ^^

Dont go...

I still cannot erase you, I keep thinking about you, I really miss you, I cannot sleep at all at night
The sound of the raindrops hitting on the window of my heart The place that you left, I really miss you
And I cannot sleep at all at night
                                                 -0330, UKiss


replayed ukiss's 0330 mv for over an hr D: watch it here
and the explanation for the mv is here

its so sadddd D: i know this song is like... kind of old but ehhh i wasnt that into ukiss so i didnt listen to it but D: dongho D: i nearly cried watching the mv

o well o well so since im bored im gonna make a list of the 5 saddest mvs ive ever watched :L

1. 0330, ukiss
2. haruharu, bigbang
3. heaven part1+2 ft island... actually most ft island mvs are pree sad D: HONGKIII *fan girl scream*
4. taeyang wedding dress. although the ring thing at the end was STUPID but the songand lyrics D':
5. B2ST B2ST HAHA i just have to put b2st somewhere :O the mv of fiction is pree sad i guess

OMG I RUV B2ST ;D
and troublemaker should be coming out 2day WEEEEEEEEE HYUNSEUNG N HYUNA ;D i was so happy when they kissed at MAMA LOLOLOLOL
anyways i g2g byeye haha byebey

sure its my fault
im responsible for everything thats bad in your life
sometimes i realli wonder who you think i am
just because i dont cry or thorw tantrums everytime you yell at me because you're unhappy
doesnt mean i dont have feelings
just because i act as if i dont know anything everytime i hear you telling dad and your friends how bad and stupid i m
doesnt mean im dumb or deaf
i just dont want to cause fights and i dont want you to be angry
you've always asked me why do i always want to make you angry
but whos the one who yells at me all teh time?
whos the one who talks about me behind my back?

sure, maybe im no where near perfect
maybe you think little sister would grow up to be someone more smarter and prettier than me
i dont even mind being neglected like a toy that you've played enough with
but can you just leave me alone and not hurt me anymore?
can you try to hide your feelings sometimes too?

i dont blame you for chosing to yell at me out of all those other people
afterall who am i to blame except myself for acting as if i dont have feelings
for acting as if i dont care
and for acting as if i dont know what you're telling other people about

everytime you get angry you would say the same thing: when you're 18 get out of my house, i'm just looking after you because it's illegal not to
for the first time i wish i was older, i wish i was 18 so i can get away from all these sadness and make myself useful instead of being a burden

i apologize for what i've done
even though i dont see what i've done wrong
im sorry for being such a burden
im sorry for being the stupid person i am
im sorry for hiding my feelings too much
im sorry for being ugly
im sorry for being fat
im sorry for eating too much
im sorry for wasting too much money
im sorry for living in your house
im sorry im not old enough to get out
im sorry i cant earn money
im sorry not looking after me is illegal
im sorry for sleeping for 6 hours
im sorry for waking you and little sister up every morning when i brush my teeth
im sorry i cant cook and clean like a maid
im sorry i have too many friends that i need to spend some quality time with once in a while
im sorry i dont like coming home early after school
im sorry... im sorry for not being perfect

im realli realli sorry

Busy procrastinating...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VANESSA AND CHLOE AND JESS :D

alalalala tomorows the last day of assignments... i think... or maybe i hav to do my french on monday i dunnoo but YAAAAAY assignment week has gone suprisingly well without me stressing a lot and i've been sleeping earlier and earlier but i still feel slee deprived and i was in the middle of doing a boring science assignment on dinosaurs when i fell asleep sitting in front my my computer -.-

so now im in the middle of procrastinating and my science essay is due tomorrow and so is my french speaking test which im finding incredibly hard to remember by heart... im starting to panic now cos i think i miteve stuffed up my french writing test... hopefully i havent

i should go back to doing my work now... yea i should...

english speech DAD project french writing test maths test ict assignment science in class essay  french speaking test

btw maths party tomorow \(^.^)/ bought so many bags of m&ms today YUMMIIII